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Monday, December 7th, 2009

Subject:Finals
Time:9:30 pm.
So I've reached a new level of procrastination. Instead of studying for my finals, I have dug up my livejournal, which I have not updated in for several years, and decided to write in it. Wow. Words can not describe my disappointment in myself. However, since I have already embarked on this journey into laziness and studious incompetency, I might as well enjoy!

I have this huge ass Italian final at 7 in the morning tomorrow. I understand most of the vocabulary and such, however as far as sentence syntax and grammar though, I am thoroughly fucked. It's far too late to learn any of the structure, so my only choice is to do my best to memorize hints and such.

On top of that I've got my intro to digital media final later in the day. While I am not nearly as worried as I am for my Italian final, it's still a pain to know it's on the back burner. Long story short, I will not be getting much sleep tonight.

The good thing is once tomorrow is over, I'll basically be done with the worst of it. I've got another easy final on friday, then off to wrestle in the communist nation of Georgia on saturday. People on the team are talking about buying some bottles and throwing a party when we get back circa 2 or 3 in the morning, which sounds like a great idea until I think about the final I have on monday. That, and it's the last weekend of regular season fantasy football and I need to be in a sound state of mind if I want to win and make the playoffs, with the latter being totally more important to me.

For those of you that have read my LJ through the years, you'll notice one reoccurring theme: Corry. I don't want to leave my loyal LJ stalkers wanting, so I'll keep with theme by saying that I hung out with her last weekend, and it was a great time. I really hope I get to see her again soon, being that she is my best friend, very attractive, and brings out the best in me. Sappy? Yes, but not as sappy as my hormone driven raves about her in my previous posts. Don't believe me? Make like reading rainbow and don't take my word for it. Either way I don't give a shit, and either way I love her.
1 died trying --- risk it...


Saturday, December 30th, 2006

Subject:but its a sweet fuckin car
Time:5:46 pm.
happy new year to all

the hollidays were very generous to me, I am now a official owner of a PS3.

sawwwwwwwwwwwwwwweeeeettttt

yeah its consumed my soul just about, Its so friggen cool I cant stop messin around with it. I'm a pretty big playstation nut now. I was really into it a while ago but then stoped messin around with video games for awhile. Now i got a psp and ps3....all i wanna do is buy crap for it. not exactly the best thing to get back into but hey, moneys gotta go somewhere besides college right?

speaking of college I hope I get into uf.

im excited for next year already. I'm excited to start school and get out on my own. I'm excited to come back for the holidays and enjoy it like a normal person would (and not have to worry about making weight or working out everyday). I'm excited to come to a wrestling match and just watch for a change, instead of being out there.

but I really cant complain about wrestling much either. the season has been flying by so fast and I have been doin awesome, I cant wait for states.


school starts back again on wednesday. not that I care anyway, during wrestling season i dont even believe in school work. drop me a comment with your schedual if you got it, I got gov and econ honors first, AP english second, chem honors third, and wrestling fourth.

im out, gonna worship the playstation

later~
risk it...


Monday, December 11th, 2006

Subject:we speak in different voices
Time:11:45 pm.
Mood: grateful.
Let me start thing off by saying this post is in reference to a time period in my life that is happy, joyous, blessed, and one of the best i have had in my life.


phew

hard to live up to that but lets see if i can do it.....

first off I won class clown for senior sepurlatives, which is awesome. however I was more happy that me and corry got nominated for cutest couple. we didnt win but it was still a big deal and we were both happy knowing many of you agree that we are pretty friggen cute...I mean come on.....its stephen and corry, haha. I also got put up for senior of the month which is a very big accomplishment to me, im pretty stoaked to say the least.....

got accpeted into ucf, hell yes. If i dont make it into UF, at least i have a home in orlando where I must admit would have no problem going to, I really do like that school alot.

wrestling. thats been my life. I havent been writing in here about it because I've got a training log to record my adventures through the harsh and unforgiving season (overdramatic, yes) but it has been going well to say the least. I'm still undefeated, won two tournaments, and am currently ranked number 1 the state. Yet another thing that really tickles my pickel.

this is all covered with whip cream and a cherry by the fact that christmas is just around the corner, and I am very excited to just get through this last full week of school and spend time with my family.


I'm mad happy right now, thats pretty much it in a nut shell
risk it...


Saturday, November 4th, 2006

Subject:I've seen the dead arise
Time:10:07 pm.
Mood: predatory.
wrestling season just started, last go around for me. Its been weird getting back into it, it came on me so fast i dont think i was ready for it, i just got up the first day and went to practice almost like i never took a break. Its not necessarily a bad thing.....pre-season classic is already here and I have to admit I am in the nest shape I have ever been in at this point in the season.

I dont think it will be that hard for me this year, not only am I so much more confident now then ever but I am more willing to put the work in simply because its so easy and familiar with me now


after doing it for the past four years thats about all you really can do with the work, its just grows on yo. becomes a part of your life.

I'm gonna plow through everyone this year.

Instead of being worried of tough matches coming up I find myself utterly excited for them.

the only idea that hasnt hit me yet is gettin back into cutting weight. I'm not that far off, usually eight pounds over 119 after practices and I havent exactly been dieting. the pre-season classic will help me with that this friday I think, I'll drop to 125 and take it step by step.


its that time of the year. the time where I stow my life away for four months so I can take up the arms and go to war.

see you guys in february

its wrestling season
risk it...


Monday, October 16th, 2006

Subject:best week ever
Time:1:04 am.
Mood: content.
VH1 should have me on their show cause this was one of the most memorable weeks i have ever had.

monday- first day of the homecoming week, had alot of testing but iwas cool cause i wore my pajamas all day. also shoved 13 marshmellows in my mouth to win the lunch game

tuesday- dressed up in my toga and had a blast at school, finished the day off by going to miami and seeing tito vs shamrock III. yes, it was kick ass

wednesday- the clan and i had the best bumm set up ever. stole a shopping cart and bummed around the entire school, won the dress up contest. insanity games that night and had the most fun there, we came in second,

thursday- super hero day, alot of good stuff happend but it seems i have forgotten in my jubilation

friday- corry and i had our TWO YEAR anniversary, gave each other gifts and basked in each others affection (wow that was mushy, but true). that night went out on the football feild for the court, turned out to be quite an experience. chilled with corry for the rest of the night

saturday- the dance. went to steak and shake tahn wal-mart to carry on our tradition which was fun as always. the dance was mass fun and after we got the key to alex's vacant, old house to hang out. needless to say it was a good time and afterwards corry slept over.

today- slept in late to recover from the week and then went to the every time i die and chidods concert with corry in orlando. after the rock show got out we just walked around downtown disney.



and now here I am, to happy to sleep. tomorrow we have off and the clan is getting together, not to mention we also have friday off. three day weekend this week, three day weekend next week.

with halloween around the corner, i dont know how much better things are gonna get~
2 died trying --- risk it...


Thursday, September 21st, 2006

Subject:blackula is in the house
Time:6:04 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
so I hear your from outa town....wanna have a drink?

everythings great, my birthday was awhile ago and 18 feels great. havent taken advantage of the XTC super center or any of the other fruits of age, but that time will come. however I did manage to have the best week ever. The proceeding week my friends threw a surprise party for me which was great.....I got the best friends in the world. the week after everyone came over for another party, went to daytona to hang out and came back for the night. once again,

my friends are amazing.

Corry gave me the best gift however, droped like $300 bucks for my sorry ass. got me a PSP. I love her so much, shes the best. she really made everything 10X better.

Things are still getting better. friday is tomorrow and everyone is going to see jackass which is going to be sweet.

if anyone wants to love life with me call me up sometime so we can chill with my B-A friends and my hip PSP
risk it...


Tuesday, August 29th, 2006

Subject:lets get it on!
Time:8:07 pm.
Mood: ecstatic.
so I just got some tickets to UFC fight night 7 with Ortiz vs Shamrock III

i'm amped as all hell
1 died trying --- risk it...


Tuesday, August 15th, 2006

Subject:something isnt right, i see it in your face
Time:5:15 pm.
Mood: blank.
and thats about it, please someone drop me some comments to prvoe LJ isnt a homicide victim~

me and my friends hung out on sunday, it was so sweet. We havent all chilled in god knows how long, but we had a good time. For all of you not informed, we have been making a short movie and were gonna get it on youtube for everyones viewing pleasure, I'll fill you in as it finishes. anywho we did some of the flick, then went to famous phillis, talked about college and what everyone is doing, I think mostly everyone is gonna try to go UF so its chill. We went to see Pulse which sucked but we were the only ones in there so we could goof off and do whatever, julius tried to light one of the seats on fire

school has been alright, I really do like my classes so I cant complain. My favoirte is debbs (AP english), just cause I learn so mch from there

first off been pickin up wrestling again, tryin to slowly get down to fightin weight. I am so pumped for this year....I want a state title so bad and I know its so close. My dad talked to the head coach at UCF and he told my dad I am one of the top recruited wrestlers in florida, my dad said he seemed surprised i would even consider wrestling in florida, and should go out of state. I guess thats cool, I'm gettin some exposure on that level which cant be to bad, right?

hey everyone, hows it goin? my life has benn pretty sweet lately
2 died trying --- risk it...


Sunday, August 6th, 2006

Subject:whoa, I'm losing hope. theres a hole in my heart thats been cut out of stone
Time:12:57 am.
Mood: melancholy.
Will you walk straight, not like them.
To fool them in, make it seem like you're in trouble.
Make a sound, fake it enough.

"What made you so scared?"
Maybe you're mistaken for someone who cares.

If you remember, remember,
I've been trying to get back to the center.
I'm sure it's not like it was before.

To make them drink, tell them that it's only water
No one leaves 'till we figure this out

"What made you so scared?"
Maybe you're mistaken for someone who cares.

If you remember, remember,
I've been trying to get back to the center.
I'm sure it's not like it was before.

Patience,
Both we and our words are over produced by influence.
By influence.
Patience (patience),
Both we and our words are over produced by influence (by influence),
By influence (by influence).

I'm only asking:
If you remember, remember,
I've been trying to get back to the center.
I'm sure it's not like it was...
risk it...


Wednesday, July 19th, 2006

Subject:cut...cut.....cut...cut.....
Time:11:11 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
summer has really been flyin by, and sadly I have only been able to catch some glimpses of all of you through out the past two and a half months. however I shall fill you in on my life with something I have always wanted to do......VIA AN FAQ!!!

1.) hows your summer been?
A.) my summer has been awesome, just got back from sounds of the underground with my good friend john and warped tour with corry. besides that just rackin up the cash at the beach lifegaurdin


2.) you still goin out with that one girl?
A.) yes, my and corry are still goin out


3.) hows wrestling?
A.) wrestling is over for the summer, went to a national tournament in virginia beach and did fair. also went to a week long camp in deland, I have gotten much better

4.) when are we gonna chill?
A.) I work fridays, saturdays, and sundays till 5 so I can hang whenever. all anyone has to do is call, my new number is 237-4312.

5.)is it true that you kicked a small dwarfish man in the stomach recently?
A.) ha! no

6.) if the oppertunity presented itself, would you kick a small dwarfish man in the stomach?
A.) sadly yes


anymore questions just comment

much love~

P.S. new underoath killed your grandparents
5 died trying --- risk it...


Sunday, June 18th, 2006

Time:12:38 pm.
Mood: cynical.
There’s no sign of love
I can see the faces
underneath the smile
everyone’s alone

And they don’t believe you so
no, they won’t believe you, no
we are the only ones
that won't let go

get somebody else to
tell you how you feel inside
let it go, let it go

this seems so surreal
keg of empty promise
constantly I feel
shaking in my bones

And they don’t believe you so
No, they won’t believe you, know
am I the only one
who hurts my soul

Get somebody else to tell you how you feel inside
and you let somebody else drag you down
don’t fake it all, don’t fake it all
You're the leader in the basement
let it go, let it go

I’m a fool at heart
I’m weighted up against
the cruelest of hearts
I’m weighted up against

I sing sweet again
I sing sweet again
I sing sweet again

Don’t feel bad
Do what you want no, no
I want to believe you so
Do what you want no, no
Why should I feel so bad
we’re keeping it no, no...

Get somebody else to tell you how you feel inside
and you let somebody else drag you down
But don’t fake it all, don’t fake it all
You're the leader in the basement
let it go, let it go
risk it...


Thursday, June 8th, 2006

Subject:diseased by information, plagued by what we know
Time:9:55 pm.
Mood: sore.
wow its been so long since I cranked this baby up for some good ol' live journal madness. summer is here thank god, but sadly i havent had time to enjoy it. the first week i left for th keys with my dad, which wasnt as fun as it sounds. missed josh who i havent seen in 4 years which was very upsetting. however upon my return the clan and i rented broke back mountain and watched it a julius house.

disturbing

but entertaining.

then I went off to wrestling camp. just came back today and let me tell you, I have never been so sore in my life. I pretty much beat eveyone there down, won the take down tournament and also took down this nine time AAU state champ 5 times, three of which in a row.





pretty funny cause he told everyone he could never be taken down........


anyway now I'm back with my beautiful girlfriend, all beat up (black eye included) with her here to take care of me. shes the best.

now I can finally sit back and enjoy the summer~
1 died trying --- risk it...


Tuesday, April 11th, 2006

Subject:oh, how I've been teething
Time:2:09 pm.
Mood: drained.
so is LJ dead and gone or what? oh well, I'll update this for all the lovers out there that still throw props out to the good ol Livejournal

hope everyone is havin a sick spring break, I know I am. I need some R&R and I am enjoying it thoroughly. Yesterday was pretty good, surprised corry by taking her up to jacksonville to see the receiving end of sirens and a thorn for every heart. I felt bad though, I dont think she had that good of a time because she was sick but if she had any fun at all, it was more then worth it.

I had a good time with her, just being with her anywhere makes it perfect.


today I'm just takin it easy. might hang out with the clan later.

until then I am just chillin


~love me lovers
2 died trying --- risk it...


Sunday, February 26th, 2006

Subject:I've over heard this once, it has gone on before. its one in the same...
Time:7:13 pm.
Mood: quixotic.
"what made you so scared?"

"maybe you're mistaken for someone who cares"

"if you remember (remember ), I've been tryin to get back to the center"

"I'm sure it's not like it was before..."
1 died trying --- risk it...


Sunday, February 19th, 2006

Subject:saturn will not sleep until the sand has made us clean
Time:5:51 pm.
Mood: ecstatic.
its over, the hours of long practice and work. the pain and injuries, the pressure, the sacrifices. finally it reached its climax this weekend at the state tournament.

everything I worked for this year was practice leading up to this, and I would finally be able to see just where i stood against the states finest

and if i was actually one of the states finest.....







my father told me around december that I was one of the best in the state, and all I had to do was believe. I dont really know if I took his advice to heart, week after week I looked at the state rankings to see me absent and when I did get there, I wasnt very high.

no, I didnt really believe




but something clicked in my head, around the time I first stepped on the mat in the lakeland center. I realized it didnt matter to me where I was ranked, what anyone thought or how good anyone was coming into this tournament. it didnt matter what was expected of me or what wasnt.

but that I loved what I did, and that I loved being out there and winning the tough matches. and that I was going to have fun this tournament, despite all the pressure and expectations.

and thats what I did.


I had so much fun that I found myself in the consolation final, beating a kid from miami 4-3 to take third, and I loved every intense, pressure filled moment of it.

I cant describe it, i dont think it has set in quite yet. I am one of the top 3 in the state.


I am so grateful to everyone that has pushed me along, and so proud of what I have accomplished.

now I know what it feels like to be one of the best~
1 died trying --- risk it...


Thursday, February 2nd, 2006

Subject:scream the word that save us all.....
Time:5:57 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
this is the start of the end for so many things.....my sacrifice, my pain, my dedication, my failures.....my accomplishments, my joy...this is where it counts


I cant stop looking back at what seems like now, a brief second in time, but in reality has been more then four months of my life consumed by this all. I cant complain, I have done so much this year and gotten so much better, but this is where everything I have poured out of my essence and into this melting pot of commitment counts.

Its hard to fathom just what is on the line, one screw up in your match could send your entire season up in smoke. I would know, I have done it the past two years and nothing hurts more then watching everything you have worked for slowly fade along with the last seconds on the clock.

I don't want to feel that this year


I'm sick of failing, and the pain, and the hurt, and the let down.



this year is going to be different








I hope~
risk it...


Thursday, January 12th, 2006

Subject:so put your faith in modern steal
Time:4:59 pm.
Mood: excited.
wow things have been flyin by, I cant keep up with this pace. Blink my eyes for a second and now here we are, rotary tournament is already here. I am so excited for this thing, maybe a little nervous, but the thought of snagging first at this tournament would as prestigious to me as anything, except a state title. As fast as everything has been going this is one of the things I have been looking forward to, and want to win so so bad.

If you guys have been keeping up, we have been kickin some serious ass. last week we pounded seabreeze and matanzas, and yesterday we murdered new smyrna. Everyone should come, either tomorrow or saturday to see and support us, we have been working so hard...



however



despite this whirlwind of events, I cant stop thinking about her in slow motion. At random times in the day I catch myself thinking about her and how shes got it tough right now.

baby I love you so much, I'm always here for.



I promise
1 died trying --- risk it...


Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006

Subject:we waited seven hours by the sea, for the taste of ecstasy
Time:12:11 pm.
Mood: thirsty.
hey everyone

happy new year

cant say im gonna miss 2005, it was a rather nasty year with the hurricanes and god knows what other natural disatsers, I lost count after hurricane 85.

anywho, 2006 seems to be a year for oppertunity, the state tournmanet is around the corner and I am getting better and better everyday. I cant wait for it.

while we are on the subject of wrestling, last week we won the sunshine open, I am so proud of the team because we beat some tuff teams, and that was without a 112 or me. I got hurt at the tournament, got blacked out and had to default out. it was horrible for me, but its good to know the team can still open up a can even though I cant be there to score for them.


tomorrow is also our match against matanzas. pshhh, its not even gonna be a match really. its just gonna be slaughtering, line em up one by one and have em come out to be pounded into the mat.

right now I am not to happy about it, cuttin weight is so bad I hate it, and for what? to beat up on matanzas......*cries*

anywho


I AM GONNA GET CHELSEA LEAKE SOMETHING BECAUSE SHE IS FREAKIN SICK.

thank you


im gonna go now

peace~
1 died trying --- risk it...


Sunday, December 25th, 2005

Subject:ho ho ho.....
Time:7:44 pm.
Mood: contemplative.

merry christmas!!

I wish everyone on livejournal a merry christmas and hope everyone had a really good holiday.

 

one thing I am thankful for this holiday season: corry, the one thing that makes everything right, and the only thing that makes everything perfect

 

I love you baby

 

 

 

3 died trying --- risk it...


Sunday, December 18th, 2005

Subject:you better pull over and stop at staples so i can get a pencil and paper to write that down....
Time:8:41 pm.
Mood: accomplished.
wow what a week

As you all know this week was the last week of school and now we are on Christmas break. Finals were ok I guess, pretty sure I got a C in math which is upsetting cause I haven’t had a C in about 6 years. Its ok I guess, I've been really focused on wrestling lately and that is pretty much the reason why this week was so overwhelming.

Wednesday was our dual meet against Lake Mary. We pretty much blew them out of the water, but I had a tuff kid who was a state qualifier and the team’s best kid. I was nervous the whole week thinking about it, and gave him more credit then what he was worth; I stuck him in the second period.

Friday and Saturday was the big one though, the Lyman Christmas tournament. All of the best Orlando teams were there like St. Cloud and Olympia, and we weren’t predicted to even place in the top 5. Plus there was a team from Oregon that was second in the state too, no one expected us to make any noise......

But we did, because we won the damn thing.

Everyone did so well, and I am proud of everyone there. It was a team effort, and it feels so good to know that everything is coming into place.

The other exciting thing is the fact that I won as well, and I am so happy that I did. I beat a kid from Oregon that was ranked number one in the state, and also the coach’s son. Funny thing is my dad didn’t tell me all of this until after the match because he didn’t want me to get nervous. He also didn’t tell me that my win is what would have made or break our first place finish....talk about pressure lol

But we did it, I did. We rose above everyone else and I can’t wait till we can get our next chance to beat some more ass.

later~
1 died trying --- risk it...


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